My rambling blog posts!

  Firstly, let's address the above photo; it's one of mine taken the other night when it was dark and misty and I needed a breather from the post-Christmas comedown. I felt it set the tone nicely as the weather matched my mood, it still does, I feel "misty and gloomy", SAD has arrived earlier than usual this year, it always turns up in January but to happen before new years eve is unheralded!  It's worth mentioning that I was going to say all of this here blog in a podcast form, (a good friend of mine even donated a podcast mic for just such an occasion), sadly I couldn't do it, I tried to record it and ended up getting emotional and looked ridiculous, (my rubbery, ogre-like face looks insane when I get upset, I wouldn't inflict that on anyone), so this here blog will have to suffice. Plus to be fair, this will be rather long-winded and potentially depressing due to the subject matter and how hard I've crashed, so wouldn't be a successful start to ...

  Confidence is a strange thing isn't it? We're taught from a young age to always be confident, stand upright and face the world head on. To be confident in your own abilities, self confidence is key...but to some of us that never really worked out. I don't recall ever having high self confidence, I remember many incidences where I knew the answer to something that someone was asking but opted not to say anything just in case I was wrong. I have zero confidence in regards to how I am as a person, what I look like and any skills I may have. Even this here blog has had about 12 re-writes so far and will no doubt will ramble on too long by the time I post it. Luckily I just assume not very many people will read it all - mainly thanks to that lack of self-belief.  However, what if this isn't a bad thing? Nobody likes someone who is over-confident, cocky and smug. That's nauseating to say the least, it usually goes hand-in-hand with narcissism. Is there a balance between...