My rambling blog posts!

 As a species, humans are bizarre. I could end this blog post there as I'm sure not many of you would disagree with this sentiment. Just a quick check on any social media can instantly show you how odd we are in general.  I find my personal favourite odd trait is one of passive aggression, it always brings a smile to my face when somebody puts so much effort into trying to assert themselves without having to be remotely assertive. For example; I was told someone was ignoring me recently; (we had reviously had a disagreement many moons back, I will always maintain that I was 100% in the right, they probably feel the same way), the problem being that I was blissfully unaware, I don't know how long this person has been ignoring me, nor do I care, (we never did really get on, we had a tenuous link at best). The thing that pleases and puzzles me in equal measure about this is that I had zero idea, so they weren't even getting any kind of response from my end, surely that is mean...

  I get melancholy sometimes... It's not a groundbreaking or unusual feeling really, I'm sure billions of people feel the same way. I struggle with keeping the sad thoughts at bay, so I can be happy and smiling one second and spiralling into a self-induced gloom the next, I've always felt this way for as long as I can remember.  A doctor once diagnosed it as depression, but I dismissed this as, truth be told, I've known people with crippling depression and it felt almost disrespectful to place myself in that same bracket as them because whereas they struggle to even leave the house, I just feel intensely sad every now and then.  Since this pandemic began things have been significantly worse, I think this is the case with most people around the globe. We are living in very strange times indeed, so it's hardly surprising that it has had a knock-on effect with people's mental health and general buoyancy. I know I definitely took a hit in this regards, I have been f...