My rambling blog posts!

 I vividly recall the above photo being taken, I wasn't very old and the night before we were due to have our school photos taken I decided to get into an argument with my brother, resulting in him throwing a toy car at my face and scratching my face. As you can well imagine, I regretted this the next morning when it came the time for my photo to be taken, I was so embarassed and wished I hadn't argued.  That's the thing about regret, that moment where you start thinking "if only I hadn't...", it can really eat away at you like nothing else. If I had a time machine I would be hopping back all the time to alter things that I now regret, it would be an arduous task, (and that's without factoring in the butterfly effect, can you imagine!), so I'll leave time travel for now.  I have so many regrets, some minor and some major, I wish I could eradicate all of them but sadly I cannot. My regret tends to kick in just after I've done something on impulse. T...

  I apologise far too much. There, I admit it. I think it is part of my anxiety/ low self-esteem set-up. I apologise for many things; for being too early to things, for texting too often, for texting too little, for not answering my phone, for ringing people, for getting in the way, for not helping, for helping, for being the way I am, for being too clingy, for being too distant...etc, you get the idea. I am a ridiculously apologetic person.  This may be a problem and indeed those close to me have said it's unnecessary as most of the time a sorry isn't required or even apt at that moment in time. The issue is do I want to be someone who doesn't apologise? No, not really. So how can I find a balance here? I can list things that I would apologise for and decide which require apologies maybe? Let's try just that... Being early to an event/meet up - apology needed, could be deemed pushy or over eager.  For texting too often/too little - apology probably needed as it may com...