My rambling blog posts!

It's almost the end of August already, which means only one thing...the beginning of my favourite time of year - the "bers", (SeptemBER, OctoBER, NovemBER and DecemBER).  I can't ever put into words exactly why autumn and early winter are so special to me, but they truly are. It's hard to articulate why I start feeling excitable as soon as September the first rolls round and continues to bubble away until January-ish. Even stating that my soul feels "warm" at this time of year doesn't do it any justice. The best way to explain it is to equate it to the old Ready Brek advert from when I was a child, that 'glow' the kids had, it's like that but inside my body.  I could surmise it is because both of my children, my wife and I were all born within the "bers", or as an avid fan of horror films and general spookiness October/Halloween holds a special place in my heart, the carving of the pumpkins, the watching of horror films and Hall...

  Today was a terribly sad day for a lot of people, arguably one of the most brilliant comedians knocking about- Sean Lock, passed away from cancer. Not only is it a sad loss to fans of comedy but it is tragically sad for his family and friends, just heartbreaking really. He was a master of his craft, naturally funny and a terrific comedy writer as his sublime sitcom '15 Stories High' shows, a fantastically funny show. By all accounts he was a lovely chap to know as the many, many stories on social media from his fellow comedians show, there is a lot of love and affection for him which is heartwarming and indicates what I always assumed to be true - he was a lovely person to know.  Isn't it weird how certain "celebrities" deaths hit you harder than most, I think the five deaths that have affected me the most by far were those of Sean Lock, Rik Mayall,  Ian Cognito, Robin Williams and Neil Innes, all from the world of comedy and all were, (and indeed still are) an ...

 I can't sleep...or should I say that I have trouble sleeping but I fall unconscious eventually. I've had this issue for many years now, so I'm used to it but at the same time I wish I could get into bed and drop off instantaneously.  I also acknowledge that certain distractions, (such as checking social media, browsing online and even writing this blog), don't help. However it is these distractions that keep my brains infernal questions and criticisms at bay! I can honestly say that once my head hits the pillow each night my brain starts firing questions such as "why did that person not respond?", "have you done enough today?" or "why are wombats called that when they look nothing like bats?".  Another issue is my own self-criticism, I have a constant internal monologue telling me that I'm a bit rubbish, nothing major just a feeling of inadequacy, which generally speaking is always well-placed, (I hasten to add this isn't a self-pi...